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Welcome to the Chaos Wiki.

This will actually host several wikis within on installation using namespaces rather than separate instantiations. I've done some work with Skin.php to make it so each namespace can configure their logo and sidebar as they wish so each can have a different feel and make it obvious when you are moving from one to another.

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Poetry:You hold my soul in the palm of your hand

2008-10-09T23:00:11Z

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{{Poem
|poem=you
hold my soul in the palm of your hand 
a fragile offering of light and fire 
my heart you've possessed 
since eye met eye and you did not turn away 
now i offer all that i am 
every fibre of my being 
heart, soul, intellect, 
body, mind, spirit 
all that i am 
and will be 
every potentiality}}

Poetry:Waking dreams

2008-10-09T22:59:28Z

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{{Poem
|poem=Waking
Dreams 
Metallic forms dance along the shimmering web 
illusion adds life to plastic and wire 
turning cheap dimestore items into an array of colour and light 
silver mesh adds frosty sheen 
and fae wing their way to and fro amongst the stars 
moon, sun and supernova share the same limited space 
a portable night sky}}

Poetry:Rambling

2008-10-09T22:59:05Z

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{{Poem
|poem=Rambling 
World spins 
day turning into day 
and i watch them pass 
 
each into another 
each alone 
 
how can i miss something i never really had}}

Poetry:You

2008-10-09T22:58:12Z

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{{Poem
|poem=You 
someone dropped the ball 
and we fell apart 
did fate really mean it to be so 
why did we meet 
why did we love 
if we weren't allowed to be together 
i close my eyes and see your face in my head sometimes 
i see your smile and hear your voice 
there is no bitterness 
only this prayer 
if one of us is ever alone 
that the other will be too 
and we can finish what was started 
and be allowed to love}}

Poetry:Your name echoes within my soul

2008-10-09T22:57:11Z

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{{Poem
|poem=your
name echoes within my soul 
at once a plea and benediction 
for without you i am part not whole 
the mere shadow of perfection 
and with a rapt amazed thought 
i contemplate the perfection that is the united whole 
that within ourselves is such unity wrought 
what am i without the consciousness that is you 
a frozen portrait with no hope of gaining life 
or perhaps some idle work of prose}}

Poetry:Your eyes

2008-10-09T22:56:26Z

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{{Poem
|poem=your
eyes 
Do you know how much i miss your eyes 
falling into them and getting lost 
the absence of time 
the safety 
 
 
why did you look away}}

Poetry:Within your eyes i see my soul revealed

2008-10-09T22:56:05Z

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{{Poem
|poem=within
your eyes i see my soul revealed 
as if we share one heart 
kept apart only by the division of two bodies 
and yet in perfection reunited as one 
a touch shared is but a revelation of unity 
never far apart 
though separated by distance}}

Poetry:VRE

2008-10-09T22:55:44Z

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{{Poem
|poem=For
Victoria Ruth 
She was only a year and two months 
when God chose to take her home 
a life ended so soon 
and as we organized for a presentation 
i watched private moments of mother and sisters 
and wept for what they'd lost 
last night we gathered 
to pay tribute to her memory 
and see the work wrought in her name 
a school, where others of her age could learn 
a school where they could hope for a better life 
then their parents.. and grandparents.. and aunts and uncles and peers 
and i wept 
but it was tears of joy 
for death has brought hope in the end 
and not the hope of one life 
but hope to many 
children with only poverty to look forward to 
now eat two meals a day 
and have clothing 
and learn to read and write and so much more 
We see the pictures of a face lost so young 
 
and it still grieves us 
but we see the pictures of so many faces so young all experiencing joy
that they would not have had 
and the grief is tempered}}

Poetry:Why?

2008-10-09T22:54:42Z

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{{Poem
|poem=WHY? 
even those who offer support 
find need to question 
their well-meant comments 
wounding deeply 
do you think i haven't asked 
all the same questions 
do you assume love has blinded 
me to the inevitable future? 
nothing but pain highlights 
what is to come 
and i face it as an unavoidable consequence}}

Poetry:Torn from one who shares my soul

2008-10-09T22:53:52Z

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{{Poem
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from one who shares my soul 
by one who shares no more than a smile 
is exquisite agony 
beyond anything i ever feared to experience 
the denial of this pain renders 
every coherant thought into a baptism 
of acid-steeped dread 
one instant spent devoid of thought 
the next overwhelmed by an anguish 
that threatens to tear soul from spirit 
and mind from body}}

Poetry:Torn

2008-10-09T22:53:27Z

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{{Poem
|poem=torn 
tattered snowflakes 
dashed against a leaden sky 
your eyes 
frosted over with ice 
hard and cold 
no remorse 
no tenderness 
you rip my soul from me 
clinging luminescent strands 
that finally fall to ruin}}

Poetry:To be apart is dying light

2008-10-09T22:53:04Z

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{{Poem
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apart is dying light 
a soul in fragile panic 
as through the darkness shrieks and pleads 
but no answering name is found 
lost soul without a home 
no fire to warm its way 
no where or when or in between 
but always torn apart 
to be lost within your eyes is life 
but to turn away is death without the dying 
eternal on and on 
please take me in and set me free 
to be enslaved and home}}

Poetry:To fall from grace

2008-10-09T22:52:38Z

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{{Poem
|poem=to
fall from grace 
at the sight of your eyes 
and the touch of your hands 
would be a price too small 
to cause question or loss 
and the gain much more mine 
if at a word or with a sign 
you promised more 
without a thought or even breath 
the vow is matched 
in blood for blood 
and thought for thought 
as soul to soul 
is met and won 
forever is but a second 
and hours far too short 
but spent alone 
each instant is a tiny death 
multiplied to infinity}}

Poetry:Together for a fleeting instant

2008-10-09T22:51:45Z

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{{Poem
|poem=together
for a fleeting instant 
in the scheme of eternity 
torn apart by misplaced circumstances 
and forced to stand separate 
where once a perfect whole united 
the soul in flux 
torn between two halves 
yours? mine? a heart fractured}}

Poetry:Tied in knots

2008-10-09T22:51:06Z

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{{Poem
|poem=tied
in knots 
Emotions ebb and flow 
a perplexing cacaphony of hate and rage and despair and love 
they twist and tangle until the knot is so tightly tied 
there is no way to distinguish one from the other 
 
set me free 
 
or not}}

Poetry:Thoughts falling on paper

2008-10-09T22:50:23Z

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{{Poem
|poem=thoughts
falling on paper 
i'm getting answers 
but they only lead to more questions 
is your heart taken 
do you have a heart 
you tell me what i am 
but sometimes i think we speak different languages 
am i what i was 
was i ever anything}}

Poetry:Tender touch

2008-10-09T22:49:54Z

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{{Poem
|poem=tender
touch 
barely a caress 
but always a reminder of love 
eyes meets eye 
a glance exchanged 
as tangible as any 
offered hand to hand 
loved by both 
each a form of bond 
as perfect as the spoken word 
and the sound of your voice 
declaring love}}

Poetry:Spider Bite

2008-10-09T22:49:28Z

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{{Poem
|poem=Spider
Bite 
twin instants of pain 
and the clarity of death 
vision becomes focussed 
memory becomes forefront 
but what are those memories 
are they the appropriate precursor of eternity 
or simply a continued profusion of the mundane 
when it is your time to go 
and your life flashes before your eyes 
will your last seconds bore you to tears}}

Poetry:Silence

2008-10-09T22:49:09Z

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{{Poem
|poem=silence 
not simply verbal 
a total absence of contact 
dwindling away 
i find myself fading 
pale shadow of former interaction 
where are you? 
why do you build this wall? 
a vacuum 
that isolates me 
please}}

Poetry:Searching for one as if lost

2008-10-09T22:48:50Z

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{{Poem
|poem=searching
for one as if lost 
you stare thru the mirror 
to the heart on the other side 
smothered within a shroud of expectations 
which are not your own 
but belong to this stranger 
with his impenetrable eyes 
and plastic smile}}

Poetry:Safety in your eyes

2008-10-09T22:48:19Z

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{{Poem
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in your eyes 
and the memory of your smile 
a chance encounter 
metamorpheses into eternity 
for without you i am lost 
a soul with no substance 
or perhaps corporeal with no spirit 
either way, unity divided 
from that which makes it real 
do you love as i love? 
is this needful separation as agonizing to you 
or does it fade and drift away 
like ash on an endless tide of complacency?}}

Poetry:Roses

2008-10-09T22:46:54Z

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{{Poem
|poem=Wow!
My roses have bloomed 
Drops of dew and rain spangle the vivid lemon hues and deep lime tones 
 
Flower opens to the fresh-washed air and spreads petals to the
sun-drenched sky 
 
Bud nestles within secure confines and awaits its turn at blossoming 
 
Thorns hide amidst the new leaves a hint at the pain that is evident
amidst the beauty that is life}}

Poetry:Rent from you

2008-10-09T22:46:06Z

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{{Poem
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from you 
torn from the light of your love 
from shadow to brilliance to shade 
like the moon hidden behind wind-tossed clouds 
where am i without you 
a soul without life 
a heart with no beat 
from eternity to eternity 
i need your love 
to hear you voice 
or speak your name 
to be whole again}}

Poetry:Pain spirals

2008-10-09T22:41:15Z

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{{Poem
|poem=pain spirals 
overwhelms 
leaves ice where tears fall as dry as ash 
hatred anger anguish 
loathing 
despite 
empty lost 
close mind 
refuse to remember 
refuse to think 
silence 
prayer 
 
you bring nothing but pain 
and you revel in it 
wanting nothing more than to destroy 
your words are lies 
bitter to the core}}

Poetry:Pain on pain

2008-10-09T22:40:19Z

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{{Poem
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on pain 
into the abyss fall 
passed tear-slicked walls 
into oblivion 
desolation rends and tears 
a pain as deep as heart and soul 
torn asunder 
lessons taught an abject loss 
horrors wielded by one sworn to love 
given the right to torment by a quirk of fate}}

Poetry:Pain fills every pore

2008-10-09T22:38:25Z

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{{Poem
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The pain fills every pore 
standing by 
saying nothing 
bleating out social words 
seeing everything 
it hurts 
i just want this pain to fade 
 
what have i done to deserve this 
why this curse 
 
but i dread the release 
the absence 
 
please don't leave me 
 
please don't leave me alone}}

Poetry:Once i wrote of beauty

2008-10-09T22:37:50Z

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{{Poem
|poem=once
i wrote of beauty 
but now shadows lurk round 
every corner 
like the shadows in your eyes 
grey clouds that hint at ice and snow 
bitter cold warmed only by your touch 
how can it be that the bearer of my torment 
is at once the bringer of my peace? 
peace at what cost? 
opposite poles 
how can it be}}

Poetry:Oblivious

2008-10-09T22:37:24Z

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{{Poem
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Do you know how i feel 
 
do you care that i do feel 
 
do you ignore it because if you gave credence to the feelings then the
game would end? 
 
or is it for some other reason entirely 
 
would it upset you to know that i consider you one of my best friends 
even though we may never see each other again 
 
do you know how much you made me smile the other night 
 
why do you choose to play the game with me 
 
why is it that we play so well? 
 
Or do we 
Or is it a delusion on my part 
 
why is it that you can make me so comfortable with myself 
 
but when it comes down to it, i don't feel that i really know you all
that well? 
 
do you ever think of me when i'm not around 
 
do you miss me? 
 
if you ceased to be oblivious (or pretend to be) 
would we still play 
or would you walk away 
 
why aren't you here}}

Poetry:Newly minted earth

2008-10-09T22:36:41Z

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{{Poem
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minted earth 
awash in shades of softest green and brown 
animals awakening afresh in 
the originality of perfection 
alike in newness and originality 
flowers unfolding in fettered rainbow luminescence 
life alive in innocence and freedom 
salvation from the evil that is to come 
that even in the first breath of life begins 
its consernation of fatality}}

Poetry:Mourning a loss of innocence

2008-10-09T22:36:20Z

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{{Poem
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a loss of innocence 
mutual not singular 
perhaps self-inflicted 
punishment 
is more then that bestowed by another 
who am i? 
what have i become? 
is this really me? 
i'd claim not but 
the alternative is more fearful}}

Poetry:Iridescent bubbles drift on a breeze

2008-10-09T22:35:32Z

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{{Poem
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bubbles drift on a breeze 
show scenes of reality not yet imagined to life 
soft delicate descendance 
and fragile collision 
show what might have been 
and what is yet to be 
each world minute in perfection 
moves ever onward just out of reach 
from fingers stretched toward realization 
and yet a touch sunders the translucent skin 
and that contained within becomes 
the present reality 
no longer confined within its intangible prison}}

Poetry:Invade

2008-10-09T22:32:14Z

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{{Poem
|poem=invade 
you invade my mind 
a pleasant infiltration of smiles 
and starry eyed remembrances 
a hint of melancholy for what was lost 
but each image lends a taint of happiness to an otherwise dreary
adultdom 
where are you now 
do you still smile with mischief 
or have you darkened into a mature image of yourself 
 
*HAH* 
even that thought brings a wry smile for such a thing could never be}}

Poetry:I walk eyes wide into the trap

2008-10-09T22:26:02Z

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{{Poem
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walk eyes wide into the trap 
welcoming it with open arms 
to tumble headlong into the grey-green heaven 
a momentary perfection 
risked for mere pleasure 
and at what cost? 
the price is not yet known 
minutes to hours to days 
the countdown begins 
and what then... 
physical salvation 
moral ruin 
or both falling to disaster 
a short time more}}

Poetry:I see a light within your eyes

2008-10-09T22:25:14Z

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{{Poem
|poem=i see
a light within your eyes 
but as you turn away 
i'm lost again within the black 
without the stars to guide me 
you are half my soul 
and all my life}}

Poetry:I miss you

2008-10-09T22:23:58Z

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{{Poem
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miss you 
i miss you 
why can't you be here 
why can't you love me the way i love you 
you told me you loved me 
was it just habit? 
why did you say those words again 
do you? 
did you? 
will you? 
3 
4 
it had been so long 
so very long 
i love you 
i dream of you 
why is it like this? 
why does it have to be}}

Poetry:Penance

2008-10-09T22:21:51Z

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{{Poem
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will i survive this torment 
forced to remain in gratitude 
while my soul pleads for the release 
that only death can offer? 
the irony of forgivenes that brings redemption 
at the price of my eternal torment 
is beyond my capacity to bear 
waiting was quite one thing to be bourne 
but this knowledge of eternal separation 
is a torture that only increases my burden for the end}}

Poetry:Purity in love

2008-10-09T22:20:54Z

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{{Poem
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purity
in love 
gossamer touch of butterfly wings 
pristine glimmer of soft crested snow 
the gentle sigh of wind over water 
wrapped in a being entire 
delicate agony 
holding inviolate 
while revealing soul to soul 
inescapable truth}}

Poetry:Lonely

2008-10-09T22:19:09Z

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{{Poem
|poem=Lonely 
I miss you 
Every day 
Not one passes without the longing 
silence brings recollections 
music brings memories 
why this absence 
why so cold 
 
I hate this 
the void... the pain 
emptiness shouldn't hurt like this 
it should be simply a lack 
not a presence of agony 
 
please 
make it stop 
please come back 
please remember me}}

Poetry:I love you

2008-10-09T21:29:38Z

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{{Poem
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love you 
you are my idol 
a false god 
i teeter in the balance 
knowing better 
but defy my obedience with love 
(or is it lust) 
not of stone or gold 
but of flesh and bone 
mortal like me 
but deified in my worship 
and adoration 
what right do i have 
to set you on such a pedestal 
to risk your life 
(or is it soul) 
... 
none but selfish desire}}

Poetry:I fall into your eyes and find a peace

2008-10-09T21:29:04Z

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{{Poem
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fall into your eyes and find a peace 
i didn't know could be 
touched by a hope for a future 
i never dared hope to find 
all bound by a promise you call love 
what more could a soul desire 
but to be set adrift by your touch}}

Poetry:I dreampt of you last night

2008-10-09T21:28:41Z

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{{Poem
|poem=I
dreampt of you last night 
You were in my dreams last night 
why do you choose to show up there 
i asked for a token and you offered me 
a spiderman ring 
do you still think of me? 
do you still love me?}}

Poetry:Lost in your eyes

2008-10-09T21:26:13Z

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{{Poem
|poem=lost
in your eyes 
my perfect hiding place 
peaceful serenity of chaos 
grey enfolds 
surrounds 
crystaline orb 
shelters my soul}}

Poetry:Grey gaze shifts blue to green

2008-10-09T21:21:16Z

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{{Poem
|poem=grey
gaze shifts blue to green 
at once tender and mocking 
as tangible as a touch this stare 
a caress though visible only 
no contact ever felt 
thoughts bridge the chasm 
making distance no more 
than an instant 
i fall 
bourne aloft within this gaze}}

Poetry:Green and gold mingle

2008-10-09T21:20:47Z

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{{Poem
|poem=Green
and gold mingle 
a tangled web of pain and pleasure 
memories burn and bleed 
tainting present and future 
the endless cycle 
as one form of madness replaces another? 
i will not need 
i swore that vow 
and clung fast to it for almost two years 
so why now? 
why knowing better 
do i walk eyes wide open into a repeat? 
is pain such a desire for my life? 
venom tears my heart and soul 
the poison corrupting every hope and dream 
as i seek solace within a nightmare 
just recently escaped.}}

Poetry:Frozen in the eternity of a stare

2008-10-09T21:20:19Z

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{{Poem
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in the eternity of a stare 
when eye meets eye 
and soul touches soul 
like a brush of fettered lightning 
an instant turns to minutes to hours 
til there is no time to speak 
beyond a hurried farewell 
with a million words left wasted 
like gems poured out and lost 
each shining brilliantly as 
it falls out of sight...out of reach}}

Poetry:Frozen heartbeat

2008-10-09T21:19:52Z

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{{Poem
|poem=frozen
heartbeat 
suspended in time 
for a second, hour, eternity or more 
fragile fire 
that is life's kiss 
fades to ash 
and the once brilliant flicker 
is absolved in ebony 
a fantasy 
or is it phantom 
rises in perfection 
of absolute authority 
barring indecision}}